Okay so, I posted this on instagram earlier but I wanted to go a little bit more into this because it meant a lot to me.
This morning, I went to a spin class that had me an emotional wreck, bawling half way through the class and it’s all I’ve been thinking about since. Let me explain. Headstrong by Trapt came on; I got excited because I loved this song when I was 13 years old. The instructor coupled the song with motivational words, shouting “You need to be headstrong! You are a champion if you believe you are!” This is something I learned slowly and truly believe now, but I never realized how much it meant to me. I started to think about who I was at 13; I had no self confidence, put myself down and held myself back before I even had a chance to succeed. I thought “I guess I’m just meant to be overweight. No point in trying anymore.” No, not true!! I changed my attitude a year and a half ago and here I am 65 pounds lighter, so much stronger physically and mentally, and a hell of a lot more determined. My 13 year old self would’ve never imagined this; it’s sometimes hard for me to believe now. It’s only once you truly believe in yourself that the success will follow. In all aspects of your life. The body achieves what the mind believes. You’re capable of shaping your body, your mind, and your life. 100%. You are in total control, you’ve just gotta be headstrong.
I never would have imagined myself as the person I am today. With regards to weightloss, I used to have the mindset of… “well, maybe I can, but probably not.” or I’d try, but not really expect anything out of my efforts. But now I know that literally all it takes is determination and belief in yourself and what you want, will happen. There’s NOTHING holding you back from what you want. Like they say, where there’s a will, there’s a way. It’s so true. I feel like I could throw every motivational cliche in this post. But seriously… Here I was in this spin class, sprinting and (mostly ;p) keeping up with this professional athlete. And you know what? I’m an athlete too! I am a professional athlete if I decide I am. A champion. Again, these words feel so weird because “athlete” is one of the LAST words I would’ve used to describe myself 2 years ago. Goodness, I hated anything that got me sweating. But if you imagine yourself sprinting those last 10 seconds, if you believe you can finish that last rep, if you stop focusing so much on the pain you think is your limit but actually isn’t…. you will succeed.
But this isn’t about what I can do physically. The real thing that got me worked up was realizing what I’ve been able to do emotionally. My attitude has made a complete turnaround. I’ve been able to completely change my self-talk from inhibitory and demeaning to positive and motivating. I motivate myself. I believe in myself. I make sure that I know that I am worth just as much as anybody else and nobody can tell me otherwise. I know that this will benefit me for the rest of my life. In the rest of my schooling, in my career, and any other goals I may strive for. It’s a valuable lesson that I hope you all can learn from, too.
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